Where does the time go?

What a busy week and half!

I had the girls 2 month shots plus their Syniges shot for RSV. Let me tell you, my sweet adorable lovable good girls became cranky irritable little girls for 2 days. I lost my little girls and were given two other little demons. I can't believe what shots can do to them. I felt so bad. Their little legs just seemed so sore. Whenever they were picked up they would just whimper, it was so sad. I did really good during their shots, I didn't cry, okay I only shed a few tears. The nurse said they were tough little girls. They cried, but it wasn't a "OMG you are killing me" cry. It was just a cry, I picked them up and it was over. Itty Bit didn't even cry when the needle went in the first time, it took her a minute.

They are growing so well. Savannah weighed 9 lbs 7 oz and Itty Bit weight 6 lbs 14 oz at the doctor appointment and Wednesday she weighed 6 lbs 15.8 lbs!

Both girls are smiling at me now! I love it, it melts my heart. They know I am there. They follow me with their heads and eyes. Itty Bit is so close to rolling over and Savannah has amazing neck strength.

On to the bad news, I had a babysitter ready to go and she didn't get her city zoning. So Aaron and I are back to square one with finding someone. I have 2 interviews tomorrow. We had one yesterday and oh my God it was gross. I don't know how to explain this house. There were about 9 kids, she wasn't state certified, her floor was gross and there was a 9 month old crawling on the floor with snot all over her face. When I asked where the babies would sleep she pointed to one crib in the corner of the room with stuff in it and cobwebs over it. It was all I had not to run out the door crying. I feel like I should report her to someone. Who leaves their kids with someone like that? This was suppose to be taken care of.

I am hoping to like someone tomorrow. I am being pretty picky, but shouldn't I be? I am leaving the two most precious things in my life with someone. UGH, the thought of going back to work is making me sick to my stomach. I have to go back though and I know it will be good for me. I just haven't been there since May. I am afraid I am going to be so behind, my job is changing everyday. It will be nice to be with adults again too and have adult conversations. I hate leaving the girls with someone though. I only have 2 weeks to make them my new best friend.

Time is going by way too fast! I need a time stopper!

I know people hate matching outfits, but I love them. Savannah is not happy!

Itty Bit is saying "okay mom get me out of this thing."

"Are you looking at me?" Savannah

Isn't this cute? I have been making them hats, they will have them in every color when I am done! God I love them!

Awww smooches!

They both want the spotlight, pushing each other away:)

Itty Bit knows how to hold the bink in her own mouth:)

2 months old!

Here are my girls at 2 months (which was yesterday)! They are getting sooooo big! Savannah kept giving me bright eyes when I was taking pictures. She looked so scared:)

The past two months have been amazing. I don't get much sleep, but I am functioning and happy as can be. Being a mommy is better than I have ever imagined. I am dreading going back to work, it's going to be so hard. I can't imagine not spending all day with them, however I know I need to go back to work and it will be good for me to be with adults again.

You know what's so sweet? Lately we have been putting the girls next to each other for activity time and it's so darn cute. They get to moving and they will put hands in front of each other and the other will try to suck their fingers. It's so cute to watch. When one jumps the other one jumps. I love watching them. They are so different, yet they are the same.

We are watching Itty follow in Savannah's looks as she gains weight. It's adorable. If they ever weigh the same we won't be able to tell them a part. It's going to be rough.

Again I say, I love being a mommy. I love being there for them and being needed. I love their little cries, it's so cute. It's tough when they cry at the same time because when are you are all alone it's hard to feed both at the same time:) They are just so precious. I can't believe I get to call them my daughters. I definitely feel like one lucky woman, as if I have never said that before.

Cali smiled for me on Halloween. It was so awesome to see her look at me and smile. We are getting little smirks from Savannah, but not smiles unless she has a random gas one. The gas smiles still make my heart melt though.

I thought the girls looked like Aaron, until my mom brought over a few baby pictures of me and she looks a lot like me;) Yeah! I love seeing that! Then we went over to my brother's for Halloween and I looked at my nephew's baby picture and OMG, they look like they should have been twins. It was crazy seeing that. It was like looking at the same baby. I am anxious to see how she grows into her looks. It's so awesome watching them grow everyday!

Halloween was fun, it was the first time we had the girls anywhere. It was nice to get out and have a trial run for Thanksgiving being around a lot of people. I was super paranoid about germs though, but what parent isn't right now. This damn swine flu has everyone in a panic. I want to put the girls in a bubble and keep them there. I had everyone wash their hands and I brought hand sanitizer. Everyone was understanding about how strict I was being.

Milestones, the girls are doing great holding their necks up. They seem to be very strong little ladies. Like I said earlier we are getting smiles and they are really starting to look at us. I mean really look at us. It's so cute to watch their little eyes look at you. I always say, "Aww you are looking at your momma." I tell them I love them 100 + times a day. I can't even count the kisses. God, going back to work is going to be hard.

They make me smile by just looking at them. Aaron told me he can just sit with them and think about how lucky we are and just cry. It's easy to do, they have made me a pile of mush!

This picture cracks me up, "no sissy, don't look into the camera. hide"

Our first Halloween together. Awwww, I wish we could see Itty better though.

Here are some of my nieces and nephews with the girls. So cute. The girls have made it even with this group.

How cute are they together in their first Halloween shirts??? I could just eat them up!

I went upstairs to wake Aaron up and I came back downstairs to this. Itty was totally snuggling with Savannah. So cute! They are so much fun to snuggle with.

I love you my sweet baby girls!

Love, Mommy

Catching up

Being a mommy keeps you busy for sure. I barely get to make blog post now. I really want to document everything but it is soooo hard.

So, Cali had an eye doctor appointment to have her retinas check for maturity. This was a horrible appointment. They dilated her eyes and then put this numbing stuff in it. Okay, that part was fine, but then they take this torture device to hold her eyes open while he shines a bright light in there. She cried the entire time and of course I cried like a baby. I couldn't get it together after the appointment. I called Aaron crying my eyes out. The good news is she never has to do that again because everything was perfect. She just has to go back for eye check-ups, I really did not like that appointment.

Cali also had a follow-up with NICU doctor again. She is doing great. The only issue now is the right side of her head. Her ear has shifted a little so we have to keep her on her left side or the back of her head. This is hard because she loves the right side and will move her head every time. Her weight was 5lbs 11oz! She is doing great! I asked them to weigh Savannah as well, even though it wasn't her appointment. We need a weight on her for the Syniges shots. She weighed 8lbs 6oz!!! She is my chubby little sugar bear! I love it, she is great to snuggle with.

I was hoping to be finished going over to the hospital, but nope we still have to follow-up with the NICU doctor on the 11th of Nov. We are hoping to avoid the helmet for Cali.

I stopped in to see the High Risk nurses, the ones that took care of me and the had the lights down in the hallway. I asked why it was so dark and of course after I am no longer a patient they added "nap time". I would have loved to have nap time! So from 1-3 pm no one would bug you. That would have been heavenly.

I am not sure, but I think we might be getting real smiles. I am not going to call it yet, but I think we are getting close. Oh and another milestone (maybe), the girls slept 5 straight hours last night. This was music to my ears!

This past Saturday the clinic had baby day at the zoo. I had to take the girls to see Dr. S. I am so grateful for my girls. It was cold and breezy, but I was determined to see the doctors that helped me get my girls! Itty was the smallest baby there, but they were not the youngest. There was a 10 day old there. Dr. S told me that Itty was the winner of the day though. The nurses went crazy over my girls. They carried them around and asked if they could have them. They took lots of pictures of them too. The girls did have great costumes thanks to Aunt Amber. It was awesome to see all the babies they helped bring into the world too. I was asked to leave a message in the camera and I thanked everyone. I started crying while I was talking which made my mom start crying. It was pretty funny. We are not a crying type of family, but I am complete waterworks since having the girls.

Here is a picture of the girls with the RE at the clinic. This is Dr. S! He is wonderful!

Here is Daddy with his flower and Bee.

Mommy and the girls

Itty was the bee!

Savannah was the flower

I love, love this picture!

I hate that I am getting closer to going back to work =( I thought about it the other night and cried for like an hour. I hate the thought of leaving them with someone. Why does money have to be so damn important? UGH!

Happy Due Date babies!!!!!

Yes, they have been with me for 6 weeks, but I wanted to recognize today is their due date! This is the date that marks their 40 week gestation!

Since Savannah is over 5 1/2 pounds and the due date is here she can start living like a "normal" baby. I don't really know what that means though:) I guess I don't have to wake her up every 3 hours and just let her tell me when she is hungry, but I like having them on the same schedule and it works for now.

There isn't much to report these days. They don't do much but eat, sleep and poo. I try to get some sleep between feedings. We have doctor appointments this week. I have 2 for myself and Itty has one. I am not looking forward to getting us all ready and out the door on time:)

I am not sure if I mentioned it before, I am too lazy to go back and check, but we picked a day care place. The deposit has been made. I just wish I could take them with me to work. I am going to miss me them so much!

On with the pictures and a happy due date to these little cutie pies!

Savannah and Itty having some tummy time.

Itty, tummy time and ruffle butt:)

Savannah and tummy time!

Up close and personal with Savannah:)


I really wish I could learn to turn these pictures. This one is so cute and she looks just like her daddy:) Her ears don't stick out that much though, it's the way she is laying.

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Mini updates and Professional PIctures

The days just seem to fly by now, which I am not liking. I want to be with the girls longer. I am not ready to go back to work. I know I still have until around Thanksgiving, but that is just right around the corner. We did find a couple to provide childcare and we are pretty impressed with them. I will feel comfortable (I hope) leaving the girls. It's only about 5 minutes (if that) from work. I can just swing up there whenever I can get away from my desk.

So what else is new since the last update, uh, both girls have found their cry and it's so damn cute! I can't help but giggle at it. They let us know when they are hungry too, which is also cute! I know daddy doesn't think it's that cute when he is on shift. It seems to be only between the hours of 12am and 4am they seem to want extra food and cry. I am usually on shift, but he gets it every once in awhile.

I took Itty back to the pediatrician yesterday she has another cold or a never ending cold. She is now up to 4lbs 12oz. She is still my little Itty Bitty. I am so paranoid about her. I am getting over a cold myself. I had to go 2 days without caring for the girls. It was hard, I like being able to hold them whenever I want.

Oh shooting poo, daddy got it! Savannah showed him all about the shooting poo, but he didn't take pictures =( They both have made me a target, I am sure Itty will get him all in good time:)

On to the pictures!!!!!

Well Sara Streit did it again, she captured some great moments! The first set are from the hospital. The girls were 2 days old.

Savannah having a bottle.

Itty's turn

You can see how tiny they are, look at that soothie

I could fit them both in one arm

Itty's foot

Itty (Cali)

Sugar (Savannah)

Itty

Savannah

Savannah

Itty

Savannah

This next set is from their 3 week session! Sara came out to our house after Cali came home! LOVE them!

Cali and Savannah

The girls in our sink:) Savannah is giving the finger! ;)

Outside in our gazebo.

I love this one, they are holding hands.

Family picture

So COZY!!

Savannah was not liking the bowl idea.

Okay, I think I will stop for now;)

Happy One Month Birthday my pretty little ladies!!!

Dear Savannah and Callista,
You have made the last month the best month of my life. It's so hard to put into words how much you two mean to me and daddy. The sleepless nights and the shooting poo were all worth it. I can't believe it's already been a month. I am bummed that I am getting closer to going back to work. I really don't want to leave you ladies with anyone.

I love looking at you two anytime I want throughout the day. You two have the best smiles, pouty lips and my goodness the grunts. I love listening to you ladies grunt. It's the funniest and cutest noise ever. Oh and I can't forget the sneezes followed by toots:) I will have to teach you ladies about being lady like, well the stuff I know:) Your mommy isn't the most lady-like person, but you won't know any of that until you are 25 years old.

I look forward to many, many more months...years...decades with you two. You have made me the happiest mommy ever!!!!!

I love you ladies!


Love, Mommy

1 month old!!!!

The teddy bears are still bigger than us!

We had the girls one month doctors appointment today. Savannah weighs 6lbs 9oz and is 19 inches long! Callista weighs 4lbs 5oz (Savannah's birth weight) and is 17 3/4 inches. They are getting sooooo big:) Okay, not yet, but they are big compared to what they were at birth. It makes me sad and happy all at one time. I am sad that time seems to be going by so fast. I am afraid to blink, I don't want to miss anything. I want to just take it all in and not miss anything. I love these two little ladies. Of course I am happy that they are doing so well and are healthy.

I know they doctor is still worried about Itty's weight, they would like to see her with a little more weight on her, but things are going well and happy that she is still gaining. I am going to hate going back to work. I just love being with them.

So precious!

I love looking at the size difference.

This is before they changed into their matching outfits on their birthday.

Aww look at the proud daddy with his girls.

They had to moved from the wooden bassinet, so this is their new bed. I love the twin bassinet.

I can't get over how much I love them...

Savannah and Callista, Mommy loves you!

We survived the first full week at home!

Well, the first full week at home with both girls was a success:) We survived! Aaron and I slept in shifts and it worked to keep us both sane!

I love being home with both little ladies and Aaron. I wish we could all 4 be together more, but sleeping in shifts was the way to go. It worked for both of us.

We took Savannah to the doctor for a weight check before we picked up Itty and she weighed 5lbs 1oz! She is a little chunky monkey. So, a little parent confession time. We received recipes for their bottles, well Aaron totally read it the wrong way. We were giving Savannah 4 times the amount of calories than she was suppose to get. Geez, we were already messing up the parent thing, but hey at least she was gaining weight right;) Since we have fixed it she has been eating so good. She will take her minimum and then some. She also latches on to me very well. She is an excellent breast feeder. I was worried she wouldn't latch on with all the bottles, but she is a pro and loves it.

Itty had a doctor appointment on Tuesday and she weighed 3lbs 13oz! She is getting closer to the 4lb mark, I wouldn't be surprised if she was already there right now. She is definitely a gainer! She wasn't eating as well with us this week. She started getting sick and was really congested so I did what any new mom would do, I called the doctor in a panic. They wanted to see her in the office due to her size and prematurity. She didn't have anything serious, but she did have a cold. We just needed saline drops and some TLC (I was happy to give). She is feeling much better today! She is such a little cutie.

On to the grunting, yes I said grunting. I never knew babies could grunt so much. I am told this is a preemie thing. They have to work so hard to make their bowels work, they grunt. It's pretty funny. I would swear they were talking to each other. One would start and they other would join in. It's hilarious. I just sit here and laugh at them. I need to catch it on video and share it.

Aaron and I headed to the doctor's ourselves on Thursday. Since the babies are preemies we have to get shots. We both received 2 shots, one in each arm. One was the Tdap shot and the other the flu shot. We still have to get the H1N1 shot. The pediatrician is fighting for the girls to receive shots to fight off RSV. I hope they get it, it would make me feel so much better. I don't like seeing them sick. Itty just had a cold and it broke my heart.

After the flu shots, guess who started running a fever with body aches??? Nope, it wasn't one of the girls, it was Aaron. This meant mommy had to take all shifts. I was with them all night and all day for 2 days. Mamaw came over today and let mommy catch up on some sleep! Much needed sleep. I feel sooooo much better.

Mamaw helped me organize the girls room last night. We finally got the girls clothes put away. The family room now has a floor, which you couldn't see before due to all the shower gifts. Mamaw let me sleep today and cleaned the downstairs. I was amazed when I woke up. God love her!

Friday morning I was changing Savannah and as soon as I lifted her butt up to wipe there it was SHOOTING POO!!!! She had it everywhere. I took a picture of what I looked like after the incident:)

Awww matching outfits!

Such a difference in size still, but damn so cute!

My little Itty!

I don't know why I can't figure out how to turn pictures, but I love this one too. Itty looks so sweet and peaceful.

The girls got to meet their cousin Henry! Look how much bigger he is than them. He is a 16lb 4 month old:)

Sara Streit came over for a photo shoot Tuesday night and I had to grab my camera for this shot! So cute! I can't wait to see what her pictures look like.

Savannah finally lost her cord and earned her first bath. I don't think she was a fan. but she smelled so good!

I love, love this picture of Savannah. She has the biggest and brightest eyes! God, I love her!

My girls!
Look at this one of Itty, I have no words! She is so precious!

If you are interested I have some you tube videos of their birthday! Feel free to check them out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A135Uw0ME34

and you can see the rest by clicking on More from: Mrs.Babbsy

Homecomings!!!!

well, we are all officially home!!!

I was released from prison... uh I mean hospital on September 6th. It was bitter sweet, but man I hated leaving without my babies. It was horrible. We of course came home, changed clothes, grabbed food and headed back to the hospital. I hated, hated being away from them. I had many, many tears. Aaron was 1/3rd of the way to getting us all home!

Savannah was released on 9/9/09. I spent the night at the hospital with her in a NICU transition room. I gave her all her nightly feedings. It was great to have that time with her. She did great and I had to keep waking her up for all her feedings as usual:)

Savannah left the hospital at her birth weight, 4lbs 5oz. It was awesome to have her home. I was so excited, but of course I was still sad, we were only 2/3rd's of having all the ladies home.

We stayed at the hospital pretty late that night, I didn't want to leave Cali. I cried leaving her and cried all the way home. In between crying I was smiling that Savannah was coming home with us and taking pictures like crazy! Here are Savannah's pictures coming home.

She does not like the car seat at all. She cries every time.

Daddy bringing her in!!!! Welcome home Savannah!



Daddy just can't get enough of her. He is in love for sure.


We took her out of the car seat and laid her down and she stretched and stretched. It was pretty cute.

As you can see newborn hats are way to big.

I love this drunk baby look. This was her after her first breast feeding session. It cracks me up. So much for above the influence.

Callista was released on 9/18/09. We are all home and finally a complete family. I think we all can breath a little easier. It's an awesome feeling. I cried every night leaving her. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Not too mention I was exhausted. I was spending my days with Savannah and my nights in the NICU with Cali. I enjoyed my nightly visits with Cali, esp after all the visitors were gone. It was just her and I, that was time I was having with Savannah at home.

Callista came home at 3lbs 8.2oz! She is my Itty Bitty! Seeing her next to Savannah is funny. Savannah looks huge and she is a small baby too. It's so weird.

We stopped at first watch on our way home and I swear the entire place was coming over to our table and telling us how beautiful our girls are. It was funny to see every one's reaction. A few people told us they thought they were dolls:)

We have our girls loaded up ready to leave the hospital!!!!!

Itty in her Car seat, sleepy baby.

I managed to fit between the babies in SUV. It was uncomfortable, but loved looking at them.

WELCOME HOME ITTY!!!! You completed the family!

She yawned and stretched just like her sister!

I can't fix this picture, but love it so it stays:) She is so cute!

BIG YAWN!!

Itty had a blowout (so did her sister at the same time), it earned her the first bath!

Itty makes Sugar (Savannah) look huge. It's funny because Sugar is so small too!

I am going to miss when all they do is sleep;)

All Daddy's ladies are HOME!!!

I am the luckiest woman ever!!!

Love

I couldn't think of a better name for this post! I'm in love. I never in a million years would have thought I could love this much. I didn't know it was possible, but boy was I wrong. I could stare at them all day! Who would of thought this feeling could exist. I hate to say it, but it's something you truly don't get until you see your baby(ies). Seriously, my heart melts and I just cry. I cry at how beautiful they are and that they came out of my body. It's truly amazing. I can't believe I have to share them with the world. I just want to be selfish and keep them all to myself:) I love these 2 little ladies.

I am sitting here now at 6:30 am in the morning with Savannah sleeping on my chest. There is no greater feeling in the world, I am her mommy. No one can take that away from me or her!

We are just a day away from having them both at home. We will be a family, a family of four! I can't wait to take little Cali home tomorrow. It's going to be such a great weekend!

Aaron and I are going to lock the doors this weekend and turn off the phones and enjoy being a family all in the same place. It's been so crazy trying to be at 2 places at once and trying to heal from my c-section. I spend my days with Savannah and my nights in the NICU with Callista. I love snuggling with both of them.

I think they miss each other. I really think they can sense that they aren't together anymore. I put a hat from Cali in Savannah's crib for the smell of it. I wish I could do the same for Cali, but they don't allow anything with them unless it comes from the hospital.

Here are some random pictures from the past 2 weeks, this is only a small, very small amount that I have taken:) I need to organize the post better, I want this to be something they can read later and have made into a book, so they know how much I want and love them.

This feeling is sooooo amazing. I wish I could bottle it up and sell it.

This is little Cali's..aka Itty Bitty footprints.

Savannah's footprints
Savannah bright eyed!

Savannah (left) and Cali (right) Kangaroo time with Daddy.

Awwww my 3 loves! I am a lucky lady!

Weird angle of the camera, but this is Itty Bitty!

The brief time in the crib together

Look how much Savannah looks like Daddy!

Kangaroo time with mommy!

I always look forward to nightly weigh in's with Cali, she has to keep the weight gain to come home!!!

Our first family picture, boy I wish we looked more awake.
Aren't they cute?

Savannah already working on her tan:)

Cali working on hers...

there are a lot more where that came from and when both little ladies are home I will post a lot more!

Thanks for all the support while TTC, pregnancy, and now I look forward sharing my mommyhood stories;)

GOD I LOVE BEING A MOMMY!

Still alive:)

As you can imagine it's been a busy, busy week. I have been trying to recover from the c-section and the girls have been in NICU.

I will update as soon as I can with lots and lots and lots and lots pictures!!! I have taken a ton!

We do have Savannah home with us! She came home yesterday. I have lots of guilt leaving Cali in NICU though. I have the baby blues and do a lot of crying. I soooo want her here. She is definitely missed my me, daddy and Savannah!

Cali, aka Itty Bitty (as I like to call her now) we love you little lady and can't wait to have you home.

I will post pictures as soon as I get a chance. I have been back and forth between home and the hospital. I think I might go crazy.

Keep Cali in your thoughts and prayers! She is growing and boy, oh boy can the girl put away the food! We need her at about 3 lbs 5 oz, as of tonight she is at 3 lbs 0.7 oz. Mommy wants her HOME!!! I don't know if I can say that enough!

I AM A MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!

What a week! Let me rephrase what an AWESOME week!!!!!!

I had my last steroid shot on Tuesday, the 1st of September. The next morning I took my last dose of brethine (you know the pill that stops contractions). It was just a matter of time.

Callista failed the NST the morning of the 2nd and we were going to have anymore BPP's, if she failed they were going to deliver me. I also had a doppler flow scheduled and of course she was absent ended flow. Perfect, what now?

I came back from the doppler flow and they wanted to do another NST to see if she could pass this time around before making the call to deliver. If Callista passed, we would be scheduled to deliver on Tuesday the 8th. Well, Callista passed the NST, but guess what? I start having contractions that range from 2-6 minutes a part. I had bragged about how I haven't had a contraction since I took my last brethine pill. They showed me.

I was contracting at regular intervals, so I had an internal. I was 2 cm and 70% effaced. They let me to continue to contract for another 2 hours or so. I had another internal, I was 3 cm and 80% effaced, the resident also felt Savannah's sac. I was officially in labor and they were clearing an OR out for me. I was going to have a c-section!!!! THE BABIES ARE COMING!!!!!!!

We had to clear out my room quick, I was being taken from my room to the OR and then of course to labor and delivery. We make our way back to the OR, it was me, Aaron, my mom and dad along with his mom and dad. We get to the point where only Aaron can come with me and everyone was in tears. I hugged and kissed everyone, I was off to delivery!!!!!!!!!

Aaron had to stop and put scrubs on while I was prepped. I get in the OR and they start the IV fluids, well my IV must have been in wrong because my skin started bubbling up. They had to start a new IV in my right hand and take out the left. What a way to start.

I receive my epidural and I am in no pain from the waist down, I was numb and warm. The c-section gets started.... It went quick to...

First born Savannah, I heard a nice cry and scream. My eyes filled with tears! It was amazing. She was born at 9:40 pm. Callista was born a minute later at 9:41 pm. I was holding my breath until she cried!!!!! She screamed and cried. I had two beautiful babies that cried, great lung function!!!!

Aaron was so cute to watch during the delivery. He didn't know where to go. He had the flip camera and the digital camera, chasing and following babies around. As they were closing me up they had to whisk the babies away to NICU. They needed no assistance with breathing, no oxygen. This was HUGE. Aaron followed the babies, I told him to go.


BIRTHDATE: September 2nd, 2009 (9/02 was our original wedding date, how cute they were born on this date)
Savannah Elizabeth weighed 4 lbs 5 oz, 17 3/4 inches and apgar score of 9! 9:40 om
Callista Kathleen weighed 2 lbs 12 oz, 16 inches and apgar score of 8! 9:41 pm

They were perfect!!!! They are being kept in NICU as feeders and growers! They have to eat, gain and maintain body temp in order to come home with me and Aaron. I can't wait until this happens!

I was in recovery for about an hour and then I was taken past the babies before going to my L&D room.

Callista Kathleen

Savannah Elizabeth

Callista

Me meeting Savannah... Look at that hair!!!!!

Daddy and Savannah

Daddy and Callista

Callista

Savannah

Daddy, Callista and Mommy!!!

I have soooo much more to update, but it's 3 am and I need sleep. I just wanted to get somethin out here!

OH, I am head over heels in love!

WE MADE IT!!!!!

It's week 34!!! And I am still pregnant! I didn't think I would make it here.

So many updates to post!

I started off the week with the 24 hour urine test and it came back showing higher levels of protein. I am beginning to be pre-e. So, not only does Callista have to worry about her blood flow through her cord, my kidneys are stealing her protein as well. I am not showing any issues with my liver enzymes though. My blood work came back perfect. I am just showing protein in my urine and higher blood pressure readings.

Yesterday I woke up to a resident telling me that I was going to have 2 more steroid shots as a booster for the babies. Then she followed that up with the peri on for the day scheduling my c-section for Friday. She wanted to speak with my primary since he is on Friday. It wasn't a definite, but she definitely had me awake, excited and anxious.

The peri came in yesterday with the plan, which of course had changed since the morning resident update. Dr. L mentioned the steroid shots and that I would be miserable for two nights (she wasn't kidding). They are going to stop the brethine tomorrow, which means they are not going to stop me from going into labor!!!!! If I start to feel contractions coming on, there is no stopping them!!!! I could go into labor before the weekend! Of course the babies could decide they are not ready and stay in for weeks:) Now those would be my stubborn little girls. I am anxious to see what will happen.

The peri today added more on to the whole labor thing. Starting tomorrow if the babies are not reactive they are going to do the c-section. I won't have anymore BPP's (biophysical profiles). Did I mention one of them fails EVERY MORNING??? So, again who knows what is going to happen starting tomorrow.

Can you tell I am a little anxious?

I've decided that the steroid shots are the devil. I didn't get any sleep last night. I was jittery, restless and hot, then cold. It was horrible. I slept from 11pm-12am. Then at 2am I had a dose of brethine and another 5mg of ambien. It did not make me sleepy. I was up all night. I tried to take a hot shower, did nothing. Finally, the residents came in about 5am and offered benedraly... yay it worked, I was able to sleep from 6am-9:30am. My nurse did not want to wake me up, but the peri already came in and she had to give me my meds. She was sweet.

I was a raging hormonal witch last night though. (keeping it clean for my nieces). The lady across the hall goes through out the night to smoke. Yes, she smokes. She is pregnant on the high risk floor smoking, but I won't even get started. Well, every time she went in or out she would SLAM her door. It bugged the hell out of me. I told my nurse about it this morning and she was going to talk to her about it today. She was more than happy to tell her that she needed to be quiet or they would keep her from smoking at night for disturbing other patients. She woke me up a couple of times during the nice 3 hours I was able to sleep. I am not looking forward to another night like last night. I had the last steroid shot today.

Oh and the blood flow ratio is still perfect for Savannah and intermittently absent for Callista. She is showing ratios that range from 4.3 to 5.6. They have been doing more than one ratio per reading now. It took a long time to get a reading today, she was showing more absent than not =( She is really going to do better on the outside than the inside.

My next post may be my last belly post!!!! I was going to take it today, but I had to send the hubby home to wash baby clothes and he is not feeling well. I don't need him to get me sick, no thanks! I need him healthy in case we have babies this week too!!!!!!

Update from the Peri....

Dr. B came in today and said "I hear you need some reassurance". Uh, yeah, you think?? I have been sitting here a day and half just waiting for something, anything. I tried my best to stay off google, because that can only bring a pregnant mommy to tears.

He pulls out this chart, well a piece of paper with 4 graphs. It's a graph of each of Cali's measurements they look at. He explained that the main growth or area they look at is the belly. Dr. B showed me that she was still showing growth and that the ultra sounds have a 10% error, so they were not concerned. Cali is still showing a nice progression up the hill, it's when the hill levels off there is concern. I hope this is making sense, because I don't take info in very well when I am nervous.

We are going to give the girls another 2 weeks of baking time. They are still developing organs, especially lungs and bowels. If the lungs and bowels develop the little ladies may not spend a lot or any time in NICU, which is my goal! I would love to take them home when I go home. I think this is a great hospital, but once I leave I want to be done for awhile. I know Aaron and my parents feel the same way. They are here everyday.

I am going to anxiously await September 10th for my next game plan. I hope they make a date at that time so I can meet these 2 little ones fighting in my belly:)

I had another doppler reading today on Cali and she is still showing intermittently absent and the ratio is 5.2. This week it should be below 3.4, I believe. I am having a hard time keeping track of all these numbers.

Here's to another 2 weeks of growth! (hopefully)
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I am definitely a little bummed tonight though. Abbie and Andy are getting married, well they are married by now. I would love to see everyone and I of course would have loved to have been there for the happy couple. So, Abbie and Andy, congrats!!!! Now you have to deal with 2 questions for the next 2-3 years. Let me be the first: "How is married life?" and "when are you having babies?" I do make an excellent Auntie Babby:) Love you both and I am sure the wedding was beautiful, can't wait to see the pictures!

I did enjoy talking to Aaron at the wedding and him telling me how much he missed having me there:) That was very adorable. I can't wait to be home with him and the girls!

33 weeks and the roller coaster goes down....

Well, the good news is we aren't sharing our anniversary with two little girls' birthday. Aaron and I celebrated our 3rd anniversary yesterday with Dewey's pizza and a movie. How romantic:) We will make up for it when we get out of here.

6 weeks into hospital bed rest. Good times.

We had a growth scan today and it didn't go the way we wanted. Callista didn't gain like she did last time. She weighs 2 lbs 11 oz, that's only a 2 oz gain. She gained 12 oz last time. Her blood flow was 4.2 with intermittently absent ratio and this week the ratio should be below 3.4. My poor little Cali is just not getting what she needs.

My little piggy, Savannah, gained 1 lb 1 oz this week and is now up to 4 lbs 9 oz. I am proud of her, but she really needs to start passing on dessert and give it to her sister. Her cord was of course perfect at 2.3.

I am not sure what is next. We are waiting for the Peri and the resident to give us an update on what's to come. I am not sure at this point if they want to keep me pregnant. I am hoping that they do and we can give Cali a little extra time to gain some fat. Of course, I want whatever is best for both of them.

I just had a visit from a fellow from the NICU. She was super sweet and explained everything to me. They explained what may or may not be needed for babies at 33-34 week gestation. My fingers are crossed we can go until at least 35-36 weeks. I feel better with those weeks. I hate being here, but it's more than worth it to keep these 2 baking and thriving. Let's just hope my little Cali can start gaining some weight.

I almost think Cali would do so much better on the outside than on the inside and vice versa for Savannah. If only there was a way.

Here I am at 33 weeks... Not much bigger. Come on Cali make me fat!

The proud papa, I hope the girls' get his eyes! You can see how tired he is too.

Their first little cheerleading outfits, because I want to end this post with a smile! How cute are they going to look in these outfits and cheering with daddy? Daddy thinks it's there year to come back.

Okay, now the roller coaster must go back up!

I will also update once we hear from the Peri doctor. I am staring at the door and willing him to come back in!

1 week until goal week!

But oh what a horrible night.....

I wasn't feeling anything yesterday and was actually feeling good and confident I wouldn't have these two little girls until week 36-37. I was hooked up to the monitors about 8:30, heart rates were good, both babies were showing variables, but holy hell where did that contraction come from????

I started having strong contractions every 4-5 minutes, most were painful. The nurse came in and asked if I was feeling them. I was honest, "hell yes I was." So, she talks to the resident and the next thing I know I am being hooked up to an IV for fluids. They wanted to stop them ASAP.

I called Aaron and our parents and put them on baby alert. I was contracting like I was going into labor. I was definitely freaking out. I had the resident in and out of my room. They gave me the IV and I took my brethine at 10 hoping that would stop the contractions. Well, it didn't. I was still having contractions and hooked up on the monitors until 12:30 am. The babies were showing some distress during the contractions as well, so I had to stay on the toco and the NST, it was so uncomfortable.

The resident finally came in to see if I was dilating, but thank God I had no change since Friday. I am still only 1 cm dilated, I did go from 50% effaced to 70%, but there can be difference in residents.

I was in pain from the contractions so they decided to give me percocets and ambien. I still was contracting, but they felt confident I would make it through the night without having these 2 little girls.

I made it, I didn't sleep much, but I made it!

This morning one of the residents came to ask me the standard questions. When she asked me if I was contracting I was kind of a smart ass, I just asked her if she saw the new accessory in my room, you know the one that is attached to my arm??? She just said, "oh yeah" and then walked out of my room. Do they not read charts before coming in???? Doesn't make much sense to me. If you want to be a doctor, get to know your patients. The resident last night was definitely awesome, but the one this morning was lacking.

So a cute funny from this past weekend so I can end this post with a good thought:) Aaron had his hand on my belly the other day and one of the girls moved her leg slowly across my belly. His face was pure amazement. I wish I had the camera on his face. He has felt many kicks, which he thought was awesome, but to feel them move like that shocked and awwww'd him. It was so adorable!!! I love sharing moments like that with him.

So, one more week and I am guessing we will get a new gameplan for the birthing of these babies. We have a growth scan on Thursday, I am hoping for big numbers!!!!