Babbs' Baby Trail

Back story to Vinnie Sue, from the time I saw the pink line I was convinced little one was a boy. At 16 weeks Dr. V had a hand held u/s machine and was pretty sure little one was a boy. So I bought a few boy things, started looking at nursery colors...etc. The boy name was Vincent Robert...aka Vinnie Bobarino. You all know how much I love, love nicknames.

Well, today I was in complete and utter shock. I saw those 3 little lines before she could say or type girl. I looked at Aaron, my mom and my mother in law and smiled from ear to ear, I just started sobbing. Aaron had to grab me some tissues. My mother in law said my face was priceless. I had no idea I would react that way. I am just a girl momma I guess, I love all things girly.

Let's just paint the house pink, fill it with tutus, flowers and baby dolls. This momma is on cloud nine.

Don't get me wrong I would have been so happy to have a boy. I love my nephews, I just don't know how to be a mom to boys. I think I make a pretty good girl momma, I get it, I love it, hair, clothes, make-up...just being girly.

Aaron is 100% okay with having all girls, he actually said awhile ago that he was destined to be a daddy to all girls. Who wouldn't want to be? I see how Cali and Savannah look up to him now. They are daddy's little girls. I know that relationship, I myself am a daddy's girl, but I also know my mom is my best friend. I want that with all 3 of my girls.

My life is great, there are things I wish for and want sure, but love isn't something I run short on. I have lots of love and right now for 3 little girls and 1 daddy man :)

Yes I am mushy today, I blame it on the hormones! I can do that for awhile.

So here she is, Vinnie Sue.... Hopefully we can agree on a name sooner than later. I am twitchy with no name for her.

I love her and my 2 big girls!!

Monday, June 18, 2012

Best Friends

I am so in love with these two little girls. They have become best of friends!! Watching them grow together has been so much fun for me!

Aaron was teasing Cali the other night about flushing her down the toilet, totally teasing of course, and Savannah had a melt down. "No don't throw my sissy in the toilet, leave my sissy here"

Gah, love them and their bond. I told Aaron it must be nice to have your best friend with you all the time and sleep overs ever night.

I never allowed them to sleep in the same bed when they were babies, I was afraid they would hurt each other. Now that are in toddler beds you really can't stop them when they do it. It's so adorable!!!

Savannah on the left, Cali on the right

Savannah

Cali

So in love!!

2 more days to see if they are getting a little brother or little sister! So excited, can not wait! Even though I am pretty sure the doctor was right.

Friday, June 15, 2012

19 weeks with 3.0

I need to start documenting this pregnancy now that I am coming out of the m/s fog/hell.

My MFM had a hand held ultra sound device at my last appointment and told me his guess as to what I am having, but confirmation is the 20th.... I can not wait!!!

I have been feeling little one moving, kicking and grooving. I am finally getting excited, but terrified about being out numbered, it's going to be about zone/defense in our house!

Belly picture time, which I have been so bad at! 19 weeks and starting to feel somewhat better. Oh and all the clutter around the tub, please ignore, the girls have to have everything in there.

19 weeks with the girls, which is when I was put on bedrest and less stuff around the tub:)

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

This time around... How we got our BFP...

Aaron and I decided to head back to the RE last July, we didn't have any frozen embryos so we had to prepare for a fresh cycle. We decided to start cycling in September, we had a trip to California in August.

I started BCP's after August AF. I started stimming mid to late September, I stayed on the same protocol as my first one with the girls, so the antagonist. I had 29 eggs the day of retrieval, 23 fertilized. I had a 5 day transfer, we transferred 2 blast. I had 2 embies make it to freeze with the cycle.

I kept POAS, nothing but BFN, AF showed up a day before my beta, beta confirmed BFN.

I jumped right into a new fresh cycle, because I had one left on my insurance. I started BCP's pretty much right away, started stimming in Novemeber, if I remember correctly I had 24 eggs retrieved, and 19 fertilized, I could totally be lying right now. It's blurry. I did have 2 make it to freeze for the cycle.

I POAS 4dpt and had a BFP, I kept testing and the line kept showing up. I took a digital and it was BFN. I started bleeding, went it for a beta it was 25, they wanted me to stay on endometrin, so I did. This was all over Christmas, I was totally bummed out but the girls were so much fun this year, how could I be sad? I was changing Savannah's diaper and had to run to the bathroom and get sick. My first thought was "WTF?" I tested and got a positive on the digital?????

The Tuesday after Christmas I went in for another beta and it doubled as it should have, it was like 172 or something like that. I went in for another beta 2 days later and it was back down to 93, confirmed chemical pregnancy. I had to go back in ever week for a beta until it was zero, from first beta to second was about 7 weeks.

Finally Feb. 1st, AF showed up and I could get started on my FET, I only had 2 meds, estrace and prometrin. 1 appointment for bloodwork and lining check and they scheduled my transfer for Feb 20th, again we transferred 2.

I POAS pretty much everyday, Feb 25th I got my BFP! I was terrified something bad was going to happen again, but this one is the winner, winner chicken dinner.

I started feeling sick right away, morning sickness in full force, my beta was 62 on Feb 29th and 187 on Mar. 2nd.

March 19th was our first ultra sound and believe me I was terrified I would see twins again, the RE was pretty much counting on it because I had been so sick. We saw one beautiful heartbeat. The girls went with us and they were each given an u/s picture and they carried it everywhere saying the baby was in the black hole:) They crack me up.

They tell everyone they have a baby in their bellies too.

This pregnancy has been so tough so far, they make the girls m/s look like a walk in the park.

So there it is, this little one was a tough one to conceive. We still have 2 frozen embryos, I think this is it, but I don't know how I feel about leaving them. Tough call.